Okay guys, I really need some help. Brandon, Landon, and I are moving next week. We plan on packing up our old apartment in to the truck on Wednesday April 30 and unpacking into the new apartment on May 1.



This is what we need help with:

              If you have any time that you could spare to come over and help me pack things into bags, totes, boxes, etc that would be great.  (Brandon works nights so it's up to me)

             If you have time on Wednesday to help pack up the truck, that is awesome let me know!

             If you have time on Thursday to help us unpack, that is awesome let me know!! 

             We really don't feel like renting a UHaul, so if you have a truck that we can use to haul some things in, that is awesome!!



If you help us in the Wednesday/Thursday move, you can expect to get some dinner out of the deal!

i'm tired.

i'm tired of being the one always begging you to stay.

i'm tired of all the fighting, pushing, words.

i'm tired of the yelling.

i'm tired of the blaming.

i'm tired

Okay.  It's been longer then awhile...it's been months.  But hey, when's a girl got time to do xanga anymore?  I mean, I've got my job, a husband, a child, a second job, a step-daughter...I have no life.  But, let's try and fix that shall we.

So there really isn't anything too interesting going on in the world of work...other than I'm completely and utterly bored out of my mind with my job.  I mean, it's great that I get to spend time surfing the net, writing blogs, watching past episodes of Grey's Anatomy while at work...but there comes a point when all of that gets incredibly boring.  Especially this time of year because it is sooo sllooowwww.  I want to look for another job, I am, I just don't know if I could leave.  As boring as this job is, my boss allows me to do some things that no other boss would--if I don't have a sitter, I can bring my son in to work, which is fantastic, and I can take vacation almost at the drop of a hat.  Unfortunately, I don't make squat for pay, which totally blows when you're the only one supporting your family.  I just don't know what I want to be doing.  I just know it's not this.

Brandon's going back to school.  Which is totally awesome.  He's going to be getting his degree in Graphic Design.  I think it will be incredibly beneficial and make him more marketable with potential jobs.  He's also got a part time gig going that will start the day after Thanksgiving; he's going to be calling little children and pretend he's Santa.  He's got an awesome Santa voice, so this should be a good thing as well. 

Landon is doing well.  He's getting so much better at the whole walking thing.  He loves lions, everytime he sees one he growls.  It's really funny.  He will probably have to have tubes in his ears before winter's over.  He's on his fourth ear infection and his doctor doesn't like to necessarily wait much longer than 5 to look at tubes.  Other than that things are going well for him.

The second job is not really a job yet.  I starting selling Mary Kay cosmetics at the beginning of October.  Which is fun, I really enjoy it.  But I'm having a hard time building up clientel.  I need to get out of my comfort zone and I'm not really good with doing that.  In the two months that I've been doing this, I've only put in one order.  Which isn't bad, but it doesn't lead to a lot of extra money like I wanted.  I want to make a career out of this so that I can stay home with Landon and not have to work all the time, only whenever I want.  I will get there, it's just a slow process.

Baylee is doing great.  She will be going back with her mother on December 2.  It's not a permanent thing right now I guess, they're just moving placement.  Basically I guess Ashlee and Brandon are switching positions--Ashlee will have her all the time and Brandon and I will get visits with her a few times a week.  We will be having her Christmas Eve night and Christmas day, which is awesome.  I'm just not too sure how I feel about it all and I don't think that writing it on the internet is a good idea...you never know who's lawyer is lurking around.

I miss my friends.  I don't see them nearly enough and it's just crazy.  I know that we all have crazy lives and that is the reason.  Another reason is that I don't have a reliable baby sitter.  Brandon's mom will only do it on occasion and if she doesn't have to work--plus Landon just screams whenever she's around.  And my parents..yeah right, heaven forbid they want to watch the grandchild.  I know my mom watches him during the day, but it's almost as if she thinks that because I had a baby, Brandon and I don't need any time to ourselves.  Yeah right.  If that was the case then we wouldn't be as lost to each other as we are right now.  Anyone wanna babysit?  Wednesday November 21??  Please??  Just kidding (kind of )

That's probably a long enough update for now.  Good lord I wrote alot.